Utter Nonsense - Selected Writings of Wildfeather

Noblesse Oblige and My American Heritage

2009-02-03T19:05:00.000-08:00

I was impressed by Lonnie Lazar’s comment to my recent post in Open Salon on, President, or King Obama. He said,“ ... My feeling is that if more of the noblesse in our culture had a great impulse to oblige (as you appear to have), the downtrodden and the put upon would clamor less for a king to lead them from despair.”

This statement underscores a profound understanding of the history of this amazing country. If the same were held by the greater majority, Obama’s bailouts would never have been necessary in the first place because a dignifgied patriotic people with a common cause would have all been wealthy today instead of only a miniscule few. How will he succeed when such large numbers of the population take the privilege of US citizenship for granted and view being an American a protected right for self indulgence? The ancient historian Livy wrote that his culture was unable to endure the bail. As the Roman citizens of his day, we as a whole have yet to consider the deeper meaning of a unified social excellence so codependent to everyone elses disfunction that we immediately assume the the guilt of our own victimhood declaring, "That was our fault ... we caused that!". We love money but denigrate property, lust for riches but hate the rich, waste incessantly but turn green in our criticisms of ecological incorrectness, and quite amiss. After our bail is paid, there is still the trail to come, the evidence to be weighed, and a judgement to be declared. I sure hope some funds in the bailout will be set aside for the long process of reeducation, life-style modification and retraining. The following are the reasons I believe we need these things to be a happy people and insure the happiness of our neighbors.

The framers of the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution of the United States of America were refined and highly educated English citizens. In no way did they represent the low mentality of the masses of their times, nor did they intend to protect and preserve corrupt thinking or establish immoral practices under any social or federal institution, for they trusted in just and righteous God (with a great deal of Aristotelian philosophy thrown in). These were patriots of the first order who understood the land, labor and capital potential of their continent more intimately than their relatives across the Atlantic understood black tea. They were unwilling to permit the “Motherland” to abuse their guaranteed rights, privileges and personal feelings as free men and women by permitting a distant Monarch to renege on his charter and contracts with his colonies. These men called upon a higher authority to hold their King accountable for his unlawful actions because they knew they knew the difference between right and wrong, good and evil, and in their thinking, there was nothing relative about these terms. Confident in their righteous stance they preferred to die, if need be, to preserve their social dignity and sacred honor in effect challenging George III to a duel. These were the leaders who established the first government of, by and for the people. “Give me liberty or give me death” became the motto of the freedom fighters who fought bravely to defend their rights and ideals for the happiness of owning private property without which most are unhappily employed and enslaved to daily labor, stress and overlordship from higher management. *

The American Revolution, unlike the socialist or communist revolutions of the last century, stands as a testimony to the excellence of our framers whose roots originated in the nobilities

At every point in the history of our nation, from the early pre revolutionary meetings in churches to the early presidents, high standards of excellence rather than situation ethics have been the guiding rule. There was nothing common about the common good. The highest standards bestowed grace and truth upon the common weal thus elevating the whole to higher levels of social stature compared their counterparts in England. The nobility of being a citizen of the United States of America became a higher value than an inherited aristocratic lineage since it unlocked the even greater powers of E Pluribus Unum and dissolved the limitations of peerage. It opened the way to the free expression of human ingenuity and creativity. American nobility is higher than name, bloodline, or association with any monarch because the greatness of the unity of our noble forefathers and mothers has established our freedom in their blood and sacrifices as the basis of a new and unique type of national heritage. They called it an experiment. Thus, the identity of "American" is greater than family name, land or fortune, for it is intended to legally transfer to each citizen a fully established, righteous, functional and socially evolved ideology; the purest form of national freedom is in effect, our national nobility. (Believe me, foreigners get this about us, and many would love to tear it down.) Those who come to these shores fatherless and homeless and become naturalized citizens may indeed claim George Washington, Thomas Jefferson and Ben Franklin as surrogate parents, for what they established was specifically intended for our ennoblement and good. This was never the case in England. of Europe, in the best sense of the word. It obliged them to a long suffering courage; to stand for righteousness and honor rather than bow to an oppressive government, or crawl in fear under the heels of devious tyrannies. (Benedict Arnold , it was believed, was among such nobles until he faltered and betrayed his comrades in arms thinking himself quite true to his own august cause.) Their education in philosophy, jurisprudence and the military disciplines proved far superior to that of the British. They had balanced their politics and focused their volatile zeal to such an acute flame that it stirred the hearts of the people here and abroad and ignited a passionate movement which burns bright and thrives even today.

The meaning of the word “state” when viewed from the stand point of this nation is far superior than that word as defined by Marxist philosophies and the cruel genocidal tendencies of Bolshevism. The framers could easily have coined us The United "State" of America, but they called us instead "States" preserving our diversities and various local cultures in a unified common federation. We have proven ourselves many times over and set a precedent and an enduring structure of "states" that has enabled and inspired other nations to similar freedom and well being. To be a citizen of the United States and to enjoy the freedoms we possess, therefore, enjoins each of us to take on the higher common cause and good, first and foremost, rather than to exploit our system of government for personal gain. The words of John Fitzgerald Kennedy ring true because they represent the idea of a noble citizenry which when lived in the spirit of his words have the potential to develop our structures and institution to higher levels of excellence in all fields of human endeavor. This is the spirit and wisdom of our Republic and it’s Flag to which every conscious citizen pledges their allegiance.

I refuse to pledge my allegiance and sympathies to the wisdom, philosophy, religion, society, creed, banner, people or cause of any other foreign land but seek, rather, to develop the common threads which binds me to the people of my homeland first and foremost. (Why should I; because of some fickle collegiate consumer herding insinct? Why dissipate rock solid ancient tested truths and vital human energies by regurgitating popular liberal ideologies and vague elitist notions of globalism, pantheism, or universalism? In other words: I respect Ahmadinejad much more than Lee Bollinger. Shakespeare said it more briefly, "Not expressed in fancy" –Hamlet, Polonius' advise to Laertes.) However, I embrace all peace loving people from a position of strength firmly and proudly rooted in the traditions of my own land and peoples unified in fifty states. Out of respect for this terrain and the indigenous peoples who evolved here and venerated its resources I offer my humble homage before becoming infatuated with any Hindu Guru, Tibetan Master or foreign spiritual guides or leaders. The native peoples of America preceded me on this soil and will still be here long after I am gone. Having been born on these shores I am indeed “native” American. The philosophies and teachings of the East though enriching in many disciplines are founded on the soil of other lands, climates, terrains and geographies. Although I can learn from them I must never seek to adopt or install their wisdoms or knowledge in place of the indigenous wisdom which originate from this land. Neither should I disregard the higher European cultures whose wisdom provided the philosophical foundations and legal footings upon which our sacred documents are formed and written. But, these are the tendencies I have noticed in many colleges and universities whose youthful, curious and naive souls have been colonized and carried off to serve excitingly and tantalizingly strange philosophies. What do gods originating in Bombay, or the chilly mountains of Tibet know of the golden grasses of the great planes, the trout streams and lush evergreens of the Adirondacks or the Bayous of the South? The folk of this land here, and its teachings is the permaculture and sustaining force for the wise ones who live well and thrive in these our various states of being. Why should I appeal to the practices even of my own Sicilian heritage when they were wont to sustain my progenitors in Sciacca. I am thankful that my grandparents had the foresight and fortitude to migrate to a higher culture, this American culture of which I am unashamed and most proud to serve. They taught us to adapt to this land, language and the richness of its freedom worth preserving, and its vast opportunities to everyone. I only wish they could have lived to see my day.

In closing, may I offer these words of consolement to anyone who feels that they have been betrayed by any of our leaders, institutions or policies of our government. When was the last time you heard that a plane was hijacked? The harsh atrocities of Saddam Hussein upon the innocent have ended and today the women of Iraq have greater freedom to make valuable choices to enrich their homes and their communities. There is every reason to expect that an ennobling freedom will elevate the Iraqi people into a great nation one day. Certainly they are being lifted up by a courageous and noble people who would stand with them and even offer their own lives as friends to insure their stability and common well being. As these benefits increase our friendship with them will be founded upon justice and responsible government and the fruits thereof rather than upon tyrannies or exploitation because in being ennobled by the highest good we are obliged to apply the same standards. Indeed, old customs of taking refuge in the hubris of tyrants will cease, and so, in Lonnie's words, "the downtrodden and the put upon would clamor less for a king to lead them ...". This is why I am proud to be an American. We must stop selling our country short. May Mr. Obama find a suitable resource in the American People to secure his cause for correcting and realigning our process to the founding principles of our nation.

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*A worthless social condition degenerates one's citizenship and freedom and makes the sufferer vulnerable to every form of mental abuse. It would take three generations to properly and responsibly address emancipation. In my view sub prime lending was a premature attempt to force and inspire this sense of property among those who were socially ill prepared.

The Sayings of Jeseppi Trade Wildfeather

2009-01-02T22:04:00.001-08:00

life transcends feelings

*****

love, life and truth
is the natural instinct of higher life forms
hatred, death and lies
is of the lower

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blessings are a function of the body
more than the mouth
unless you are God
or you have the authority
to speak them into existence

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the sun is alive
the earth is dead

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live in the gift

*****

keep your word and show up

*****

knowledge is control
and many use information
to manipulate the lives of others

*****

most arguments are some form of abuse

*****

she was terminally nil

*****

a dollar is a strange substance
it is one of the few things
that can be meaningful and meaningless
at the same time

*****

freemen will never seccumb to slavery
but maintain large armies of slaves
in order to secure their own bondage to liberty

*****

cognitive dissonance
is justifying what we do
so that we can stomach
our own existance

*****

what i thought was love
was little more
than me trying to fulfill
my own emotional needs

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whatever and wherever you are
is your life
but that could change

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that's all very nice
what you couldda done and been
sometimes its simply better to go with
what you got now
and what there's still time to do and be

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i love my wife
she keeps me busy
she keeps me active
she keeps me from receding into myself

*****

tyrants manufacture arms and equip armies
they inspire, develop and create wars
which forces the people of the united states
to pay billions in taxes for military spending

*****

the drive to get or consume is lust
the drive to give or release is life

*****

Iraq was fattened for the kill
same way Germany was
both were premeditated murders
planned and executed in Wall Street

*****

abuse is never a one way street

*****

good food and the quality of it
is the most important thing
in a person's life
more than clothing
and more than shelter

*****

war is hell
those who favorite it are devils
peace is heaven
those who favorite it are angels

*****

love is alive
everything else is dead

*****

i serve you freely and faithfully
but treat me as your slave
how ridiculous, how absurd, how vulgar
for when you do
you give me even greater authority
over you

*****

beware of certain people
itchin to be you friend
so that one day they can tell you
to go screw yourself

*****

the government is slowly but securely shackling the nation
in the tight bonds of whose freedom?

*****

Sometimes i feel like asking certain insecure people
I run across every now and then,
"Is it really all that hard for you to feel secure?
Are you really all that fucked up?
Or, is that simply the game you like to play?"
But i never do ... that is my game.

*****

women loathe men
who kiss them because they are beautiful
and love to kiss men
with whom they feel connected

*****

forget about the shadows
for they are nothing
and pray to understand the movement of light
and you will come to know the meaning
of all that is sublime

*****

the quickest way
and the best way
to become successful and famous
is to love what you do
rather than to love the fantasy
of becoming successful and famous

*****

if you are alive
there is a chance you will survive

*****

those who perform their art
to give love
rather than to get love
are the happiest

*****

Christ never asked us to forgo living in the present
for the promise of some future reward
vain religion does
Christ asks us to love, to give, to forgive
and to believe

*****

to her
life was one huge pez dispenser

*****

if mankind had as much respect for the living
as it does for the dead
the world would be a much happier place
to live and die in

*****

one of the reasons why jews are successful
is because they have a tribal sense of family
they speak to one another constantly
they give each other the business!

*****

the capability to come and go
is the measure of a person's freedom

*****

hear oh Ysrael
you must first accept the idea of the messiah
before you can judge who he is

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god says thou shall not kill
but if the state says thou shalt kill
in the interests of your country
it is no longer immoral but an honor

*****

where do you go
after you no longer need to impress anyone?

*****

the only way to survive around predators
is as a predator
the physically strong and violent get eaten by the word “guilty”
the mentally weak and meek are liberated by the word “innocent”
all prey are either hiding or perishing

*****

jazz is often an obsessive compulsive tick
posing as creative rhythm

*****

never be a receptacle
for someone else's snot rags

*****

inconsistency leads to chaos and disaster

*****

your consciousness is your eternity

*****

Imperfections are the nemesis of some and the power of others.

*****

The whole idea is to love people without judging them.

*****

I am always in a state of growth. What can I say?
I'll do everything I can to make you happy except make myself sad.

*****

"Once You Have Arrived", has much more to do with how present your are
than how well you are received.

*****

With the amount of money americans spend on toilet paper we could feed the rest of the world. If you throw in tissues paper towels tampons and diapers we could feed them, buy them clothes, pay their rent, and send them to school.

*****

when love is life
life is everlasting life
when love is death
death is eternal damnation
know what you love
choose life

*****

taxes are the least
of what truly taxes people

*****

thoughts become words
words become actions
actions become habits
habits become character
character becomes destiny
franklin became currency

*****

you know you are getting healthy
when you can say
i am uninterested in allowing you to use my soft ass
as a pincushion for everything that needles you emotionally

*****

My mother and father taught me how to shut down before ever thinking of opening up. And then said, never look back. But i am looking back and recovering nicely.

*****

Our present is the only forever we will ever know.

*****

Supreme Being is pure energy —the ultradimensional reality of love life and light who manifests in the time and space continuum as omniscient omnipotent, omnipresent, immeasurable, boundless and unlimited; Christ.

*****

who i am becoming
is who i am

*****

there are reasons
why females have been governed
to be modest and covered up
for millenia by men
and it is time to take a good look
at what they are

*****

Gorgeous, beautiful or otherwise, pretty females are often inclined to use their looks to control men. Since their proportions effects motor responses in males, and they know it, we are often victimized by our subconscious need to copulate.

*****

After making their doctors rich most old folks die of a drug overdose
quite confused. Jimi expressed the truth and was assassinated quite clearly.

*****

These wicked terrorists are being eliminated in order to bring democracy and freedom to a world of sluts, pimps, gluttons, druggies and murderers
i.e., the axis of good.

*****

If one wishes to be discovered it is better to be discovered by someone who exploits you for spiritual profit rather than for monetary profit.

*****

You have to know what's with it in order to stay with it otherwise you can lose it.

*****

your expression is who you are

*****

who you are as a person
is more dependent upon
what you wish to express
than what others wish to hear or perceive

*****

truth is no illusion

*****

a truly wealthy person
has enough

the truly poor person
never has enough

*****

Practice and saying in the pink is the physical evidenceof a deeply philosophical mind.

*****

I find it interesting that after six thousand years, and the admission of the greater majority of all the personswho have ever walked upon the earth, today, that there is a miniscule elite forming who feel offended with the ancient, and ubiquitous term "God".

*****

true noble character is evident
in discipline courage and loyalty
formed through love and truth

never by fear and deception

*****

human integrity
begins with
standing up tall

*****

who has the greater shame
and whose spirit is the more greatly defiled
the naked slave
or the well arrayed bidder

*****

real work horses
know nothing about getting things done

*****

stability:
feel
balance
and knowing
when to let go

*****

pure energy is ultradimentional Being

*****

beauty:

stature
grace
elegance

*****

Good care for oneself results in the best care for others. The converse is also true.

*****

all those years of stupid smiles
ceremony
and making nice

in the end
baby
you flipped me off
with love and kisses

*****

no one is expendable
everyone is needed

*****

those who are for giving
have many guests who are for getting

*****

there is nothing more dreadful to look at
than the face of deception

*****

war is terror

*****

many people can sing
fewer people can dance
those who sing and dance
at the same time
are bound to make you laugh

*****

I have enough fear, shame, anxiety and guilt of my own. Keep your gorey details to yourself.

*****

the rich get richer
and the poor get smarter

*****

Life is light; is truth. Death is darkness; is deception –two entirely different kinds of energy. What drives you?

*****

I am a meatball in the spaghetti sause of God.

*****

peace is easy
hatred is hard
open hands for giving
easily bring tears of joy
clenched fists of vengeance
bring hard tears of misery

*****

for too many years
i was the subject
of the object

*****

self consciousness is insanity
self awareness is the cure

*****

when self respect is the currency
and pathetic vainglory is the product
absolute rubbish is the end result

*****

your word
is your world

*****

those who disagree
die in battle

*****

He who is free may be bound but is never in bondage. But he who is in bondage may be unbound but is never free.

*****

for-giving is open and receptive
for-getting is closed and repulsive

*****

the difference between
repentance and regret
is life and death

*****

when you call it creation
it is some form of god
when you call it art
more often it is some form of drag

*****

When being in the moment means as much to others as it does to you,
you and your performance have achieved true fame.

*****

The real issues oppose the false people.

*****

Love is the irrational function of intellect and will.

*****

Few females i know have ever tasted a real male.

*****

Life is a joust.

*****

There is no escaping now.

*****

make it fun
make it beautiful
make it happy

*****

conserve
convert
converge

*****

The one who preserves the truth before his body is your superior.

*****

On the Bilderbergers – Righteousness stands open and true, whereas the philosophy of tyrrany and dictatorship is secrecy, concealment and fear.

*****

Jesus removed the agonizing guilt and shame which separated me from God.

*****

it makes no difference
which came first
the chicken or the egg
i eat them both

*****

Some say Jesus was a rebel. I say, Jesus was obedient even to death. Those who condemn him are rebels.

*****

the word of god
is more about
a living consciousness
than about
lifeless printed words

*****

Understanding Politics – I'm right, and you left.

*****

George Washington's farewell address was farewell to liberty, for indeed,
there has been no such liberty seen in this country since.

*****

I believe that the national security is a function of the soul first and the body second.

*****

real feelings
are what you have
when you open up
false feelings
are what you have
when you shut down

*****

Everyyone is a little bit Jewish.

*****

Understand the meaning of the word “enough”.

*****

The true religion worships a false god.

*****

everyone
is traumatized
few know it

everyone is poor
few know it

everyone is rich
few know it

everyone is blessed
few know it

everyone is cursed
few know it

everyone is brilliant
few know it

everyone is stupid
few know it

everyone is doomed
few know it

everyone is saved
few know it

*****

It is better to tell exactly what you feel than to tell exactly what you think.

*****

Vain Illusions: What you see is the light of what you think is the substance you know you believe you see.

*****

The Stick Up: If she grabs you by your eyes you will gladly give her your wallet.

*****

Those who who are able to receive pain are much tougher than those who are able to give it.

*****

I know for a fact after the fact.

*****

Italians fantacize about being loved; Jews –about being hated.

*****

Sin is biting into what is biting into you.

*****

anatagonists
love
to defend themselves

*****

Understanding:

under
faith
hope
love
standing

*****

Government is like the rigging on a sailboat without the sails.

*****

The artists have always run the village.

*****

Bonzai People

kept in small containers
roots chopped away
branches twisted in wires
dwarfed human beings
have been neatly and strangely formed
down through the centuries

*****

ignorance is loud
wisdom is quiet

the ignorant tell
then follow the herd
the wise listen
then command

when the ignorant speak the wise yawn
when the wise speak the ignorant yawn

the wise think they are ignorant
the ignorant think they are wise

the wise are full of grace
the ignorant are full of disgrace

the ignorant are common
the wise are uncommon

the wise love to conserve and hate to waste
the ignorant hate to conserve and love to waste

what makes the wise laugh makes the ignorant cry
what makes the ignorant laugh makes the wise cry

the wise know how to turn the ignorant on
the ignorant turn the wise off

the wise are sensitive
the ignorant are senseless

the wise are still here
the ignorant are already gone

*****

How does a wondering Jew understand the feelings of a permanent Palestinian?

2008-04-20T17:30:00.000-07:00

Mr. President,

When you decide to destroy whole nations of persons, I certainly hope you have consulted first with with One who created those persons. You should consult first with God or if you are unable to access God, then you should first consult with the parents who created those you wish to indiscriminately destroy. And if you choose to destroy their parents as well, then it is clear that you are administering supreme authority over life and death as god. If this is the case, you may rest assured, that you will be one day considered, as Hitler. You and all your family and descendants.

On Generals Politics and Power in the US

2007-11-28T20:20:00.000-08:00

Just did a Google search on the keywords:

us military generals modern army politics changes patriotic losing power

and look what came back!!

US generals ‘will quit’ if Bush orders Iran attack - Times Online

The Israeli-USA war cabal's power is waning. If the IDF or US military launchs on ...... that these generals are not patriotic and are aiding the enemy etc ...
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The Military in Contemporary Middle East Politics

If he is removed they have too much to lose: power and prestige, higher salaries than ..... For a discussion of U.S. military capabilities in the region, ...
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Contrary Brin: The Real War of G.W. Bush -- Against the U.S. Military

This past November, U.S. Army Brigadier General Patrick Finnegan, ..... For emerging as an industrial power? Formaturation into a modern state? ...
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Politics and Religion - The Rise of Modern Democracy

Clueless old army generals then ordered millions of unknowing young patriots ..... The United States military is now developing an advanced weapons system ...
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LP: Worshipping the Military, or the Society it Defends?

Of course, generals always have been involved in politics, and decisions by generals ... The modern U.S. military is very good, but it is not perfect. ...
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On Family, Children and Media

2007-08-30T12:25:00.000-07:00

Letter:

"Wildfeather and Denise,

If we do not get to the BBQ I want to say that we have
really enjoyed having you as neighbors. You have not
been the typical apartment dwellers, just coming and
going and not making a home. You made this your home
which helps to make it a home for all that surround
you.

Thank You, and we will miss you,

Response:

Your kind words were and encouraging witness to a lifetime of faith, hope and the love that we wish to have reflected in our lives, our family, friends and neighbors, our dreams and the simple things of friendship. Your presence has given Denise and I a great deal of joy as we have seen your family growing like precious flowers continually in bloom. May you obtain the wisdom to keep the unity, bonding and strength in your family during these confusing times.

Please forgive and indulge me, while I tell my story of why we have achieved success at building a home. It has come after many years and tears for both Denise, and I mostly before we met. I hope my perspective serve you well on your life's journey.

I had a former family once being married for twenty two years; a wife and two sons now grown. Ten years ago the circumstances our lives brought us into a a crisis and a catastrophe. It has taken these years to understanding the elements which had so affected us. Today, for the first time, I think I am able to articulate the story you are now about to hear. I have no intention of blaming or justifying anyone here but rather to expose the circumstances of our situation to the best of my knowledge with the hope of delivering valuable information to others who are beginning to raise their families in our vast global consumer culture.

I have quite busy earning a living since I was fourteen years old, and quite unprepared to navigate through the commercial world in which I live. Amidst many warnings I remained naíve of the hidden pitfalls, and well concealed dangers of what seemed to be a society filled with promise and opportunity.This foolish posture was the was as a common fly soon to be tangled in the well prepared spider's web positioned squarely in the path of inexperienced minds, common attitudes and arrogant personal beliefs. As Pinnochio on his way to school, as it were, I skipped merrily along toward what appeared the smartest and shortest path to the "good life" dancing joyfully for a number of years. I awakened one day perceived by my children as one with a long nose, tail and ears whose only sound was that of "hee haw!!" As a beast of burden, following stubbornly behind, I was bridled and saddled and made to carry my children along the steep itinerary of a vainly garbed, cunning rogue, an evil warlock, who wooed them posing as their wise, shining and trusted friend. This impostor presented himself with the pomp and pageantry of a noble courtier, serving as a kind of social guardian who knew their secrets and would entertained them for hours appearing to be more caring to their wants and needs than the one whose daily labor sustained there very lives and provided a secure resting place for their young fragile bones. During this time, I mastered the performance of my trade in Stromboli's theater. When I escaped I became an independent contractor in residential tile and marble; a kind of socially accepted out law who lived by his wits, finding the needs and filling them, keeping his word, satisfying everyone and delivering the best product at a fair price. In my field I had the good fortune to visit and exchange ideas with thousands of customers and their family members on both the East and West Coast for over thirty years. This was an unparalleled education in the personal lives, habits and orginazaationsl styles of many of the worlds finest people. I contracted with the general public for several years in one of the country's harshest environments, Syracuse, New York where the winter's wind could freeze dry the marrow, and where the incessant wetness devoid of sunlight was like living in cave in the sea. Trained to be an officer and a gentleman, I conducted myself honorably, and proved diligent and forthright in all my business dealings and contracts. There were no litigations or unresolved, unfinished business throughout my entire career. Beside being well paid for my services, I was sometimes invited to a home cooked international cuisine. I would often spend weeks in the most intimate areas of the homes of rich and poor with my helper remodelling their bathrooms, and always noticing the books on their night stands. Today, as they sit studying my tiles, I am certain to be though of with fondness in between the grunts and groans of our daily business. My average work week consisted of at least 60 hours. I rarely returned home for dinner before seven or eight every day after finding my way to two maybe three appointments, and sometimes driving through miles of snow, ice and darkness. I loved my work, though, and everyone was completely satisfied with the excellent hand crafted product they received, and conscientious follow-up service which followed. My wife spent all her time during these years bonding, teaching and caring wonderfully for our young healthy sons living in a lovely home which I provided for them in a delightful picturesque park setting. While volunteering as visitor to the incarcerated, I was soon ordained by the invitation of a group of elderly gray haired saints. These blessed souls taught me how to touch and serve the afflicted through Christian ministry, and then as a bishop to ordain others. They felt that the evidence of the teachings of Christ were apparent in my life. I have baptized, married, and visited thousands of incarcerated people in California most severe facilities. That in itself is another intricate chapter of learning and experience. During that time my children were quite young and oblivious to my life and the intensity and passion in which I lived and interacted in my society. Instead of listening to music or radio programs I memorized Shakespeare while travelling to and fro to projects and am able to quote long passages of Hamlet, many of which I think were to have prophetic meaning in my life, especially the one about the "too, too solid flesh" —melting and thawing and resolving itself into a dew. Sadly, nearly everything of that magnificent era of our initial joyous lives together was lost in the "forgetting" period of the early child existence (this is my pathos). But it was precisely here that media marked its quadrants and staking its claim via the thought reforming communications techniques designed for neuro linguistic programing. Through highly developed and focused applied psychology it is a well established fact that advertising experts and professionals are are able to capture valuable territory in the vulnerable, and especially pliable subconscious minds of children. That Hollywood has colonized our minds is also a well established fact. Masses of people are nearly powerless to contradict or reject values which have been gradually inculcated by the media to duplicate and serve the silver images of a highly materialistic consumer era. Programed by the ubiquitous symbols and protocols of in vogue groups and sub-cultures, we learn to mistrust, dishonor, negate, and scorn anyone outside of a narrowly acceptable strata like human progenitors, for example, whose authority is vilified and questioned. As prejudice against parents increased, shame and guilt appeared when ever we were present with them and their friends as if by association with us, they were acting outside of the acceptable norms of t heir peer community. Thus, anti parent attitudes began to form followed by frequent insubordination, disobedience and self causing serious conflicts within the family unit. It was generally said that this behavior was normal and everyone told us we great kids. What else were they going to say? We believed it then and still do now. The point I am making here is, however, (including my relationship with my parents at this juncture) that an interesting phenomenon was occurring that was quite unique during this era. Media, technology, consumerism, affluence and widespread social attitudes converged for the first time in history, and dictated what children were expected to do and to possess, and what parents were expected to provide, apart from the traditional norms of past generations, if we were to be considered acceptable in our community. Thus, in high school their attitudes and beliefs began slipping farther and farther away from ours as their sensitive emotions and feelings were decisively targeted, colonized, harnessed and to a great degree psychologically kidnapped, and controlled through the suggestions of the all pervasive commercial advertising environment which surrounded us. Our children were programed and encouraged to demand what they thought we as a family needed to have, wear, own, play, eat, say, think, do, crave and be. Much of the media's social and moral values, attitudes, styles, brands, stereotypes, practices, and reward structures were in opposition with time the honored wisdom values, practices and attitudes of the ages which are still maintained today in the highly educated and refined families of the wealthy and especially of those who govern. It is the common mentality of the masses that tends to vulgarize itself by thinking in terms of instant gratification, getting a easy job, debt spending, and sitting mesmerized for hours in front of a TV. I had hoped to instill in them the more ancient values. More and more conflict ensued with each passing year as I lacked the awareness, disciplines, wealth, foresight and support structure to act differently and perhaps steer my family more decisively. Eventually the elusive, visual, phantom social, mass consumer marketing gods of the 80's and 90's won the esteem, love and loyalties of our children. Our values, philosophies, and principles, although stomached for a season, were generally viewed with suspicion and fear that they might alter the look and image of the peers they chose. With all due respect, we, for the most part, were demeaned, scorned and rejected.

In searching for clues for why or how this could have occurred one should consider that the advent of a vast consumer mentality and greed had emerged in America with the parents of the fifties who embraced new material goods believing and teaching that it was our due and bountiful reward for the suffering they underwent during the depression, and for enduring the sacrifices and miseries of two world wars. The classic result according to Aristotle of having weathered such traumas was anger, vulgarity, misanthropy and an emotional depression searching to escape its deeply embedded fears and insecurities. Such a class of people were easily manipulated by the media which continually promised them relief from pain, cleaner clothing and tastier coffee to keep them awake as they slaved many "jobs" to pay for all their abundance. They had no idea that what they believed to be the greatest most privileged nation on earth would provide for them every conceivable means to lose their children, grandchildren, their wealth, their posterity, their souls, quite possible, even the very country that made having things among the common people a reality for the first time in history. By the late sixties and seventies many of us reacted to our parent's blind materialism and we sought to redefine our world toward what was natural, sustainable and fair for all people in all countries beginning with our own. African Americans received civil rights, Native Americans came into a period of cultural restoration, and indigenous peoples, wildlife and the earth was spoken for as something to be venerated and preserved. I hoped for deeper and truer communication with my parents instead of the facades and hypocrisies which their materialism had produced in them. I refused to take it on and become a slave to be shackled to the demands of a corrupt consumer culture and mentality. I decided to live a simpler life style in the midst of an affluent, frenetic society.

I struggled and labored tirelessly as any good parent might have to maintain the economic stability of our family as a building contractor living modestly and simply and was achieving good will and a keen reputation in the community. But, by the time my children had reached their teens something had occurred in both our worlds that would alter our lives forever. The recession of the nineties hit my slowly developing trade until work slowed down to a crawl, and jobs were scarce. At the same time a heavy infiltration of illegal aliens in the area we lived in drove prices down. At a certain point I desperately began to seek opportunities outside of my trade with the hope of securing gainful employment. At the time my wife had gone back to work and was climbing the corporate ladder in the highly competitive field of corporate video our of San Jose. After numerous frustrating attempts to generate income in what can easily be considered the most highly materialistic region on earth, and having found myself nearly insane with grief, depression and malaise over our declining situation, my wife, coupled with her own unresolved prejudices, and deep seated fears and survival issues, began to interpret my unproductive choices and efforts as a plan to make her work claiming that I never loved my family or wished to support them. Nothing could be farther from the truth. What I failed to support was the insidious tyranny over their consciousness that this society purposefully and profitably imposes. When I saw that their loyalties, conduct and behavior had slipped so far away from our common purpose as a family to remain united and faithful to one another, moving headlong toward their new consumer culture I fell into a depression, manifested in isolation, obsessive behavior, despondency, anxiety, guilt and mental anguish. This condition brought on an even more frightening state of mind, that of post traumatic stress originating from my combat duty in Viet Nam that lay buried beneath the surface which manifested itself periodically in the symptoms just mentioned but this time much deeper and more prolonged. By this time and in this condition my family took on the view that the meaning of "father" was a purely economic and unnatural value measured in terms of money and "earnings" in accordance with what they had been trained to think by Madison Avenue and Wall Street. The term "father" in their thinking became a title that a man either deserves and merits or loses. Mother of course is easily considered much more primal. But "father" is a natural phenomenon and authority of being a person's natural "progenitor". The word, "father" in their thinking seemed to become something ridiculous, like Homer Simpson, and foolish unless it was capable of submitting economically to the immediate judgments, wishes, and demands of the wanton consuming and wastefulness. It was through lack of training and counsel that I failed. At a certain point during my illness. Rejected and misunderstood by my wife and children, looked upon as a troubled self centered man who lacked all the characteristics they were hoping for in someone they could love, honor and respect, I began to feel gravely and acutely compromised in health and spirit. I was incapable at that time of knowing how best to proceed and regain the necessary control and government of my family. It was during this period that my former wife had steadily begun to assert her dominance over me in my weakened condition, and hired my sons to assist her in her profession in a high corporate and commercial media concern which was female owned and governed. The most painful blow I had experienced was perhaps my former wife's self righteousness, misanthropy, bitterness and and deeply rooted resentments which began to emerge. Now every thing I loved had now turned against me. Many years of suppressed and unresolved communication difficulties led to repeated breakdowns and deeper hurt feelings. Despairingly, I felt that this condition would only continue on its same depressing course for many years to come and began to view it as irreconcilable. In the meantime my wife appeared to be consulting with friends, family and counselors to decide what was best for her to do. What was under attack here was more than my honor as a father, it had become respect for me as a person. One day when my sons were 19 and 17, I quietly left my home with my illness, saddened, confused, torn, traumatized, stunned, deeply troubled, humiliated, and yet, hopeful and determined to find healing, and to achieve something much greater than those questionable circumstances and conditions which had saturated and ruined our lives. My former wife, children and extended family never once questioned my leaving, but instead each ratified that they were "not into" my being with them any longer. I was looked upon as a piece of trash and treated as a criminal from that point forward, while instances of even my raised voice in their presence were rare, much less anything physical or any cause for any alarm. We who were once so close, had slowly become closed and insensitive to each other, and disdainful of each other's presence. It was as if by some unseen force, plan or subtle design, our minds and souls had been shaped for the day our separation and disintegration. In their thinking I was to blame. They seemed so justified in their common judgment toward me saying, "He never loved his family ... he abandoned us," while my wife was steadily ascending the pinnacle of her career. I was an embarrassment to her and she was indeed happy to get rid of me. Never questioned the event. Nevertheless, my fatherhood exits and will exist forever.

To those who choose to remain in a closed, disconnected, protective and distant state, I would pose the question: who, I wonder, truly abandoned whom? I have no shame today, nor have had, only peace for the decisions I have made to remain open, connected, vulnerable and intimate and perhaps even poor, if I so choose to be; indeed, this is a frightful threat and problem for many who are lost in this mad, chaotic and perverse culture. I am returning to New York to proclaim this message to those whom I have so deeply loved in the past, and will always, now that I have gained clarity of mind, body and spirit.
Perhaps, their families will benefit from hearing my story.

Young intelligent, concerned families today are at a crossroad, I feel. The applied psychology of commerce, media and the values of your children's peer society are already deeply embedded with symbols, jargon, sounds, jingles, myths, and entire belief system apart from yours. I think that no matter how "good or unique" parents tend to believe they are in raising their own children "their own way", it is going to take education, training and great fortitude on our part to counteract the highly focused invasion of our children's souls during every phase of their development that the media masterfully targets, if our trust and bonding is to be maintained and strengthened. Since my children were raised to be consumers, they were programed by the programs they watch to view me as a fool instantly when I failed to provide for each and all of their programed consuming demands. I was and am considered a failure to this day in their eyes. Those who provide a solid resource of established wealth, and social importance, may control their children's decisions at each juncture of their development, just as the parents of the wealthy old monied people of Piedmont do. They tend to keep their children hooked on better and more long lasting visuals like the image of a vast inheritance. Outside of this, many poorer parents I have known have home schooled their children, stopped worshiping entertainment, and thrown out their television sets providing other selected means of education and visual inputs, and limiting their children's physical contacts to others in a similar community, with similar values which supported family values, unity, clarity and the lasting ennobling characteristics of parents over the temporary vulgarizing, disintegrating, and fragmenting modes of a rapidly changing society. I would make every effort at this point to educate myself in parenting study groups to discuss some of the points I raise. One big question that has haunted many parents has been, "My children have to live in their world, and they need to integrate with their world in order to be accepted in it and succeed". I would be interested in hearing your point of view.

Young intelligent, concerned families today are at a crossroad, I feel. The applied psychology of commerce, media and the values of your children's peer society are already deeply embedded with symbols, jargon, sounds, jingles, myths, and entire belief system apart from yours. I think that no matter how "good or unique" parents tend to believe they are in raising their own children "their own way", it is going to take education, training and great fortitude on our part to counteract the highly focused invasion of our children's souls during every phase of their development that the media masterfully targets, if our trust and bonding is to be maintained and strengthened. Since my children were raised to be consumers, they were programed by the programs they watch to view me as a fool instantly when I failed to provide for each and all of their programed consuming demands. I was and am considered a failure to this day in their eyes. Those who provide a solid resource of established wealth, and social importance, may control their children's decisions at each juncture of their development, just as the parents of the wealthy old monied people of Piedmont do. They tend to keep their children hooked on better and more long lasting visuals like the image of a vast inheritance. Outside of this, many poorer parents I have known have home schooled their children, stopped worshiping entertainment, and thrown out their television sets providing other selected means of education and visual inputs, and limiting their children's physical contacts to others in a similar community, with similar values which supported family values, unity, clarity and the lasting ennobling characteristics of parents over the temporary vulgarizing, disintegrating, and fragmenting modes of a rapidly changing society. Amanda, I would make every effort at this point to educate myself in parenting study groups to discuss some of the points I raise. One big question that has haunted many parents has been, "My children have to live in their world, and they need to integrate with their world in order to be accepted in it and succeed." I would be interested in hearing your point of view.

In the final analysis, what troubled me the most was knowing that my friends and family were prone to immediate judgements, ostracism and condemnations, people whom I loved and served. The one person who offered heartfelt consolement was a three term combat veteran who did so in tears. I conclude that these people were themselves victims. And, I pray "Father, forgive us ... for we know not what we do."

Wall Street Conquering the Middle East and 666

2007-07-08T10:08:00.001-07:00

it has been widely held
that it would be better to avoid
engaging in any serious conflicts in the middle east
because once disturbed and ignited
the education disposition religion
and the general culture of these people
would engage them completely in an adversarial posture
and there would be no solution
short of total annihilation

wall street is quite happy to know this
since and seems happy to provide
whatever products necessary to achieve the gruesome task
with the hope of showing higher quarterly earnings
and securing investors support

consequently as investors continue to support the process of war and destruction
they become an unpopular breed finding themselves
losing touch with the people from whose destruction they profit
becoming more isolated in their thinking and out of touch
with the humanity of their victims
referring to them in general terms as enemy terrorists
finding more and more reasons to condemn and blame
those whom they have invaded on a pretense
while justifying their actions
thus terrorized with the sophisticated weapons and massive injustices
of the west
against mankind on all levels
the cry for resistance and war escalates in the middle east

similarly germany was twice prodded to become a war machine
resulting in two world wars which resulted in the global hegemony of its victors
namely great britain and the united states
today the middle east stands as a serious obstacle
and menace to this process

as the united states failed recently in a similar pursuit in vietnam
it is doomed to fail again
without the complete marking identifying and enslavement of the entire world
because unlike the uniformed soldiers of germany
today's soldiers are unmarked exhibiting the cunning of stealth

therefore massive thought reform
identification
and surveillance will be required
in order for the west to achieve it's goals

the inspired book of revelation
states that in the end each person in the world
will be forced to receive the mark of the beast
the only other option it states would be death
this concept since cain and abel
is the process of sin enfolding in the earth
separation from the source of generosity and peace
and the outpouring of every conceivable vice and evil
which money makes clean
"like hospital cornered sheets"

God Says vs. State Says

2007-05-22T08:48:00.000-07:00

god says thou shall not kill
but if the state says thou shalt kill
in the interests of your country
it is no longer immoral
but an honor

god says thou shall not steal
but the state says thou shall steal
for if one lusts after the goods of another
and through civil tort and legal action one wins a battle
it is honorable an one is free to amass fortunes

god says thou shall not commit adultery
but the state says that sex between two consenting adults
is honorable and legal
we have already seen the huge death toll aids has taken
and venereal diseases are common and ever increasing
now the state tells us that people in other lands
who make no distinction between the state and god
who choose to live under one moral code and system
one for all and all for one
that these people are the axis of evil
and deserve to be destroyed
and if when they defend themselves
against the foreign invaders
they are to be considered terrorists and slaughtered
and since the invaders have the intention the power and the training
to completely annihilate these weaker people in their beliefs
serving the state in this effort is an honor and a privilege
while no mention is ever made of the multitudes of innocent people
who perish in the path of this war machine
robert s mcnamara stated that 3.8 million were killed in vietnam
and over 160 million last century
and if the state says to profit through these efforts is good
then multi-national corporations
that worship the god of land, labor and capital
serve the demands of the paganism
exonerating lust, greed and avarice
and making them values of strength and fertility
renaming these vices and calling it good
nevertheless the god of love life and truth
brings judgement on all those who practice wickedness
by perverting justice
it is written that their demise will come unwittingly
even in the span of a single hour
cf.: Isaiah, Jeremiah and Ezekiel

When Men Lose Control of Themselves

2007-01-15T18:38:00.002-08:00

“She loves to show her gorgeous body and knows exactly what she is doing. So what's the big deal and what are certain people so afraid of, and why are they so offended by her nakedness ?

Mature and intelligent people are aware that she has the ability to exercise a controlling power over the male through sex to such a degree that he loses control of over himself. The natural urge to copulate to continue the human race is a powerful driving force within each virile male and when it becomes a weakness instead of a strength it controls the male's thinking and his lifestyle supporting elements go out of balance, his strength becomes debilitated and his life becomes dysfunctional. When males lose control of themselves and their lives go out of balance as they degenerate into certain predictable behavior patterns being easily manipulated they abandon and dishonor their own inner voice and their human sense of intelligence justice and freedom becomes distorted. They dishonor their parents from whom they came into existence. They kill and murder others. They commit adultery with justifiable ease. They lie and steal as if it were the viable means for success. They bear false witness against their neighbors for supremacy. They lust after other people's goods. They lust after other men's wives. Males do these things when they lose control of themselves. Therefore, any intention to manipulate the mind body or soul of the male to cause him to lose control of himself for any purpose is offensive.

Causing a male to lose control of himself by manipulating him psychologically through his natural instincts, his subconscious mind and his involuntary motor response mechanisms is easily and effortlessly accomplished through sex. Most males are vulnerable in this area. When males continually lose control of their thinking and their mentality becomes limited to the impulses of their natural instincts their thinking on a higher rational order becomes mitigated and the lower mentality of irrational conditioned responses which resemble the responses of irrational animals produce an inhuman and perverted state in males misdirected from from the natural exercise of their intellect and will.

This was the common condition that the Hebrews found among the Egyptians Palestinian and Canaanite people thirty five hundred years ago. Moses was the first person to identify and articulate the irrationality of the severe condition they found and establish civil code to countermand it while imposing order on his own people as well as the people of the land when the males lost control of themselves and began to resemble animals that prey upon and destroy other lives.

A male must maintain control over his own life by being in control of his own sexual energy through knowledge wisdom and self awareness and will avoid being manipulated sexually. He will dwell in the stature of a long term monogamous relationship with a partner in order to nurture a uniquely gracious intimacy which derives from inner health freedom and beauty and exhibits the profound and majestic elegance of a loving unity. This gives honor and glory to the Supreme Being and mankind and expands peace and order. Losing control of oneself reduces into chaos and destruction.

It is necessary and important therefore that those men who control themselves continually provide leadership and stewardship over the material benefits shared by others who are in control so that the highest and most productive form of government may reign supreme throughout mankind.

Those males who lose control and refuse to acknowledge and receive correction concerning that state of being typically refuse to acknowledge or assume responsibility for what they cause being out of control while seeking to impose their condition on others believing they have a protected right to do so. Such individuals are reprobate and must be restrained when they act in an offensive and criminal manner. For this reason rational and balanced men who exhibit control over their own lives address the males who have lost control and bring them under control.

— Jeseppi Trade Wildfeather

For the Noble Few Worthy of Liberty

2006-07-08T11:31:00.000-07:00

the idea of the american revolution
had little to do with making it possible
for slaves to become free
but rather those who were indeed free
to remain free
at a time when the monarchy intended
to enslave the colonies
as well as their own homeland england
to the absolute dictates of a few

so rather than become slaves to that monarchy
the struggle to maintain ones personal freedom
and civilian rights tested and proved
high and worthy ideals of self determination

(note: gandhi and martin luther king
understood christ's death death on the cross
as exhibiting higher ideals for freedom)

but if a person lives like a slave
in bondage to anything
the consequences are disastrous

george dubya is president
because he understands bondage
and exchange
and can exploit the principles
of divide and conquer effectively
to control the world

those who "have" are dividing
from those who "have not"
those who "have" must be keep free
while those who have "not"
are must be kept shackled
before they destroy the freedom of those who have
and since a great many who "have not"
are already slaves
they are literally holding their wrists out
begging to be fettered
how does one determine who they are
the answer is easy
look for
drug addiction
flagrant sexual immorality
negativity
prejudice
hatred
criminal culture
those who esteem imprisonment
in places like folsom and san quentin
something to be honored boasted about
and valued in their communities
over the freedom of squares and the educated
whom they mock and loathe
always for-getting
and never for-giving
vengeful
taking the law into their own hands
preferring their their prisons
to live in over life in society
so instead of being held behind physical bars
the bars are being converted to psychological bars
of fear and paranoia

patrick henry once appealed to the already free men
in his famous speech
he asked his countrymen
if they intended to hold out their wrists
and lay supine as
the british were sending their troops to america

he opted for liberty or death

but things have changed today enormously
conditions are far different
than they were two hundred and thirty years ago

and how have things changed

the united states is at least fifty percent of the people
our government has acted in the highest essence
of that freedom once gained in Philadelphia
common poor people have risen
to the the ranks of the highest leadership
accountable to at least fifty percent of all the people
exposed and acting in accordance with the will of the nation
even robert s mcnamarra who shrugs his shoulders saying
"so, we made a few mistakes"
even nixon's mistakes and his filthy mouth
even clinton who enjoyed fellatio with interns
even bush's mistakes which is that he is a child
playing a game in his father's middle eastern sand box
a game that could end in nuclear war

is it now the people of the united states
who have become the new monarchy
of the entire world
are we angry today
are we are angry at the injustices
are we angry at the axis of evil
are we angry at terrorism
are we angry at the enslavement of certain peoples
are we angry at the abuse of women and children and the aged
are we angry at the unfair social and economic conditions
are we angry at the high life of a few
which feed upon the suffering of the many
the many who truly wish or wished for freedom
like the vietnamese and the iraqis
even though they hate us
and are or were willing to die for it

did we create saddam hussein
back in the eighties
to make it possible for him
to destroy truly evil people
who back then had sense enough
to want to destroy him
people who wanted to be free
from him back then
dead today

did we give him bechtel att&t and carlyle
to help him in his war for freedom
did we give him biological warfare capabilities
and weapons of mass destruction
in the same way
did we finance and prepare germany
through the nazi party of adolf hitler
and brown brother's harriman in wall street
ford motor
ibm and on
did we want him to kill all those wicked russian christians
and jews
did we ally with joseph stalin
after he butchered twenty million people
so that those who love freedom for all
the way we love freedom for all could survive
even if it takes getting rid of almighty god to do it

do we know that the ones who were left
who were so afraid
so war torn and immobilized
who would follow absolutely anything spinelessly
for a piece of bread
without an argument
fragmented divided souls
are indeed schizophrenic

do we esteem such as being better suited for our purpose
and more worthy of our new kind of freedom
is this like the freedom in patric henry's day
better suited than any of the rebels who die fighting for their beliefs
peasants
perhaps too frugal to suit our tastes
with too simple beliefs and practices
"if you don't need it
you don't need to own it"
and if you don't need to own it
you can share it

now has that philosophy
ever been supported
in the west
which believes in capitalism and mass media
ownership
especially of land
as a means of establishing a person through prosperity
even if it means owning the whole world
albeit
infinite wealth for a few
does that matter
when the people's coat of arms
is starbucks and mcdonalds
dedicated to curing hunger and disease globally
throw in a little fair trade
a few doctors
a few libraries
and a few bookkeepers to handle
the paperwork
for the noble few worthy of liberty ?

Creating Closure: The Key to Opening Up

2006-05-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

Creating Closure.

some years ago
i abandoned organized religion

although i loved the pomp and the pagentry
it seemed hypocritical and a mite queer
kneeling before the pudenda
of sexually repressed people
to be blessed
how odd

i abandoned as well
certain traditional family practices
i mistook my freedom and liberty
for a libertine attitude
which left me somewhat ill-equiped
to live wisely in a complex world

i had inadvertently abandoned valuable closure practices as well

over time i would "get rid" of stuff
by turning off
getting offended
leaving
trashing
tossing it out
and sometimes in a harsh dismissing manner
rather than by properly completing something
or bringing healthy closure
to the situation

today that has changed

i was a person
clutching things
even insignificant things
things easily replaceable

this is what i did
i first knew and understood
that i needed to have closure in my life
with certain things events and experiences
symbolized in those items
i needed to replace a symbol
with another symbol
and money
had little to do with this kind of exchange

i needed to decide for me
what that might be
what new ritual symbol or practice
might help me part with my stuff
and what's more
impart some new energy to that item
i saw how this could substantially lighten my load
and open my life for new experiences and things
like travel new friends and creating new kinds of wealth

in the process of finding a solution
my partner and i decided to have a garage sale
when i brought out boxes of things
unopened for years
i found mysteriously that the first items
that people wanted to buy
were the ones i least wanted to part with
"oh no! you want that?"
there were signed books by beloved mentors
precious items that i had clutched for years
evem a cherished mountain climbers snap shackle
can you imagine
a shackle
what did that symbolize?

after qualifying the persons
and finding them worthy
i related the story of the object passionately
and what it meant to me
then blessed the precious items i had been clutching
and with gladness of heart
albeit it somewhat remorsefully
as in a farewell to a child
sent it on its way
i felt happy and joyous inside
knowing something precious in my life
had moved out wonderfully
with peace
and with my fullest consent

imagine
offering a little pleasure to a stranger
by sharing yourself with them
in this manner

it seemed that the first items
that people wanted
were my precious things
priceless things to me
how could i even sell them
for money
so i gave them freely

one by one
i was challenged
and one my one
i passed these precious items on
each time
the pleasure grew greater and greater
until finally this gorgeous young brunette
found a necklace i had especially made for one of my performances

after explaining the circumstances to her
i handed the beads to her
looked into her glorious eyes
and said
here you may have them as gift

you should have seen glow in her eyes then

i thought
this was so wonderful
what i had been clutching all those years
had now become a new resource of joy
in the pleasure of giving and sharing

now i looked back at all the other things
of far lesser value
sprawled out over the makeshift tables and though
after parting with my jewel
yes i can let all this stuff go in a heart beat
in fact
maybe after that sale
whatever is left
i will simply toss into a big box
for the Good Will
which i did
as the thought came into my mind
tomorrow at this same
came the very moment
i changed my heart

needless to say
after this growing experience
my entire outlook on my things changed
i wish now to acquire finer things
that i might give them
rather than clutch them
knowing that every time i practice closure
i am opening up a little wider
and living a little fuller

try it
see if if works for you

God Coming: the Process of Salvation

2006-04-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

I find it interesting
that after six thousand years,
and the admission of the greater majority of all the persons
who have ever walked upon the earth,
today,
there is a minuscule elite forming
who feel offended with the ancient, and ubiquitous term "God".
Many appear to be becoming
quite hostile over this issue;
choosing to take offense over this term,
and blaming those who use it
as being the cause of all of the worlds ills.

But, this is nothing new.
Lenin, Stalin and Mao felt the same way.

The beast is rearing his ugly head again,
but, this time it it may require Armageddon
to push him back into his dark ugly pit.

According to the Holy Scripture
God is the infinite, and eternal orgasm
of whom those who love are becoming.

Here's my understanding of it:

Human Beings were created in the image and likeness of the Creator,
(whom I will refer to as "God" from this point forward)
and lived spiritually in intimate union with their Creator.
The first human beings in recorded history
("Adam" means "man - mankind - human")
engaged the death experience
in order to expand their knowledge of good
by adding a curious new, seemingly flavorful dimension, called "evil".
They were deceived into thinking the Creator
was keeping something wise and nasty away from them.
And, indeed he was.
He wished to keep them innocent and blissful.
Unbeknown to them at the time,
their ignorant choice was to become, from the outset,
a horror of guilt and shame.
The traumatic awakening
to the frightening knowledge
of the insidiously hostile, lethal,
deceptive, critical, legal system, and imminent death,
(which their Creator warned them would happen,
commanding them to avoid going there
because he loved them and wanted them to be continually happy -
as all good parents wish for their children)
entered them powerfully at the amygdala level.
The immediate psychological effect
manifested itself as intense feelings of nakedness and shame.
They felt vulnerable, exposed and guilty.
Our deepest core values begin
at the sexual level as males and females.
It is quite understandable
that human sexuality would be associated
with their sin.
Our sexuality is essentially
who we are; heterosexual or straight.

Coming from a place
of experiencing only "good"
they both made the choice.
Remember, "God" had intended
for them only to have the knowledge of good.

After this disobedient act
they suffered a change of state (neurolinguistics)

Adam, Eve and their entire progeny,
us,
was now strangled
in the hideousness of the effects.
What was purely innocent
became intensely perverse
and the human spirit
became unalterably distorted
from it's natural state of peace.

Nevertheless, God still loves us.

I believe God is Love Life and Truth.
This is the ultra dimensional being
who exists above our time and space continuum.
God's love promised a means of restoring humanity
to the grace of the knowledge of goodness once again,
through faith in absolutely perfect provisions, righteousness and nobility
to accomplish this in our behalf.
That provision was to be his own son,
the Messiah, the chosen person,
designated to restore, and thereby save all those who
wish to return to intimacy with the Creator.

In 1977, I made that choice.
I have had a blessed hope, peace and quite and interesting walk
since then. Mainly, I feel secure in the love of a personal being
I refer to as the Lord,

This information has come to the entire world
from generation to generation.
It stands as the final decision and Word
upon which all sound and rational judgement is made.
It bears no burden of proof.
It is the burden of those who disbelieve
to disprove this decision.
Abraham Isaac and Jacob
became the father of an entire nation
which was given the responsibility
of acting as able superintendents of this Word of promise.
God's plan and the complete resume
of his chosen servant Yeshua
was published in the Torah of Israel.
Israel has been meticulous to transmit that message
even though few Hebrews understand it.
Their impeccable way with the words, the law
and the prophesies is undeniably reliable.

As a living testimony to these facts
an early teacher of these truths
named Melchizedek, founded a city,
He was the King of Salem.
His city was known as the "The City of Salem",
or, the City of Peace.

This is a distinct statement and basis for the faithful
until this day.

He passed on the accurate message to Abraham
that God would come to earth as a human person
specifically to put on human flesh and understanding
and would suffer and die as we do
but that his death would have the effect
of saving all those who believe in him.
Abraham waited, watched and believed.
God considered him righteous for that reason.
Abraham is believed to have been one of the wealthiest
human beings that ever lived
even by today's standards.

Being defiled and fragmented on every level
by the restricting conditions of death
and the trauma of disease suffering and loss
we still live veiled and corrupted by our own mortality suspicions and fears.
Worst, we have devised legal systems to justify and sustain our guilt.

Those who cry out "Abba - Father" and receive God's own righteousness
through his Son Yeshua - known by some as Jesus
whose name means "Yahweh (Who I Am) Is Salvation".
receive the special gift of His enlightening Spirit
from that moment we respond to his loving call.
As a result the tenacious grip of "death mentality" lifted like a veil
and we begin to see the light of His Glorious Presence in us
in others and in the earth.

We who embrace this message and experience new life
become ambassadors of "Good News".
We are despised hated and even killed
by many who love and worship death.
Life is a choice
those who wish to possess it
must chose it.
Only then do we continue steadfast
to walk faithfully with God
in the full confidence and assurance of His presence friendship and grace
each day in our life's.
We will soon meet our Lord
face to face in Paradise.

May the glorious day come quickly.
- JTWildfeather

The Psychology of Mind

2006-01-11T10:54:00.000-08:00

those who negate themselves
negate others

if you wish to do harm in the world
you can easily control those
who negate themselves
to harm others

if you wish to do good in the world
you can easily liberate those
who validate themselves
to bless others

when those who validate themselves
validate others
there is noblesse oblige

when those who negate themselves
negate others
there is war and disease

is war and disease then a rule of noblesse oblige
to give those who negate themselves
an opportunity to negate themselves

this is incorrect
because war and disease
negates innocent people
and defiles the land
from which they have their existence

war is a function of self abnegation
in high places
those controlled by servants of the diabolical
they live in utter darkness
possessed of a spirit of such treachery
that they themselves are deceived
since they negate themselves
the wealth that they obtain
is negative or false wealth
is wealth obtained through deception and treachery
these are stolen goods
this is booty
this is loot

as a people of the united states of america
we must learn to distinguish between
what is true wealth
and what is loot
when we justify our existence
through concepts of might
and natural selection
and find euphemisms for stealing

we forfeit the foundations
and sound moral basis for justice
we become chaos and distorted
we become a divided house
we fall with the fallen angels
who have deceived us

but those who stand
stand in the midst of this battle
a battle is fought
in spiritual places
and although the outward person
may be perishing
the inward person is lives
and will be eternally whole
secure and one day
glorified long after
the world has perished
through the disease
of biological war

The Men, The Poet, and The Centurion

2005-12-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

by Jeseppi Trade Wildfeather

If there is any truth in the saying of Lao-Tzu, “ He who knows does not say. He who says does not know”, then the accounts of class division dating back to the beginnings of recorded history tell a revealing story. For indeed, certain things are clearly said, but never truly spoken.

Here is an example of what a noble father, say Philip, might have said privately to his teenage son, say Alexander: “Son, outside the walls of this home, there are men whose lives are empty, vain and useless. These men, and their women, are often given over to the pursuit of frivolities. They are utterly lacking, empty-handed, inane, destitute and hungry. They own no property, and the little they have they waste, or permit to degenerate, as their own miserable souls, to a state of utter wantonness and despair. While in that state you may find them flourishing of arms, and filled with empty and unreal sensations. Beware! See to it that you keep them outside these walls at all times. And understand this, while they congregate near taverns, street corners, and market places their conversation is filled with grumbling, hatred, loathsome ideas, which include plundering the innocent and defenseless of every class. These miserable wretches are driven to lying, violence, and debauchery on every order. Mark them. Watch closely those who are more cunning who have some knowledge, or especially those from among us who have fallen. For those who can read and write and have some idea of social refinement will become artists, poets and empty philosophers filling their days with vain and empty babbling which ultimately leads to nothing.

Civilized society traditionally has ordered a place or realm for them which we call Hell fire. Since they are given over to such immoralities some act of humility and nobility on the part of our society we permit them to die a noble death fighting for a noble cause. Perhaps this will bring honor to them, and give them something to actually live for. For fighting may cause the spirit to embrace the more noble virtues of loyalty, courage, dedication, devotion to an honorable cause, and, if nothing else, a steady wage from which they might buy a small parcel of land and grow something to eat.

Those who are disloyal to our government we refer to as menaces, or men in short and their females are called withmen, or wimen. We as cultured males of our ancient society or caste, are known as “anthros”, from the Greek, as in the term philanthropy, or love of anthros. A better term is “homo”, from the Latin, which means “anthros”, and is where we derive the term “home”. Therefore, males of our society represent a place of security, order, and development. Our females are called simply feminine, since they provide care and nurturing. The term “family” comes from her. It should be unnecessary for me to say more.

Now, on to the matters of security, order and development. It is time once again to go to war. The refined families in other parts are aware of this. You will gather these most destitute of men by offering to feed and pay them. They will come. You will account for them by name, place of birth, age and some remarks concerning their stature and mental and emotional capacities, and divide them accordingly. You must govern them in groups of ten wide and ten deep. We will call that the “Centum”. You will place an individual in charge of these menaces who understands their wiles and unruly behavior. Understanding their capability for brutality, savagery, and violence, he must be able to focus them into a destructive fighting force, with the ultimate end to ennoble them and dignify them, so that when they die, and die they must, they will exit their miserable lives with the notion of honor. Their uniform will remind them of their state, their sacred honor and their decision to improve their lives. Should they survive perhaps they may be capable of properly appreciating and utilizing their reward, as dignified human beings. Be certain he exercises fairness, loyalty and honor at all times, but he must be as brutal, and more savage than they, but that for a higher cause, yours, his, theirs, and ultimately, for that of the entire race. Therefore, the term, “Centaur” is most fitting for this person, or “Centaurion”. I would advise you to train these Centaurions to utilize thought reform early on in the training, since it will be much easier to control these unruly men once their minds have been adequately harnessed. You will refer to them as “men” since they are menaces, and they are already dead in their treasons, treacheries, betrayals and infidelities. Occasionally, the more noble poets, and philosophers will find themselves in their midst. Treat them with greater dignity, placing them in charge over smaller groups. Give them a chance to redeem themselves. They are more easily trained, since some of the work has already been done, and they are more apt to succeed, afterward should they survive. Understand this; the poets, artists and philosophers, and the menaces to society share similar attributes. This is why they congregate and associate together. The poets attempt to educate and control the masses through their vain, ill supported doctrines. They often become powerful and cause the more zealous of the brutes to sedition, terrorism and rebellion. We must therefore, harness them all together and educate them as one. Later on, the ones who survive will boast of their service to God, County, and Mom’s baklava. The term “Kenos”, from the Greek, which has come to mean “poet”, means empty-handed, fruitless and vain. The word, “Menio”, from the Greek, means to disclose what is secret, reveal or betray. “Centaur” in mythology is half andros and half beast. Let history guide you. These methods have been time tested. Now, gather them, set up your centurions and take them off to war. We must be diligent lest we keep our enemies waiting and frustrated. After all, they are still our blood relatives, and still our families, albeit distant.

About the Author, and commentary:

In this vignette if have attempted to disclose, reveal and betray what I think is the unspoken, paradigm of the Old Regime.

As an eternal student of Romance Languages and culture with a background in Greek and Latin, I often refer to the ancient volume of Liddel & Scott’s Greek Lexicon, an old tomb of over forty five thousand words used before the first century A.D. The words represent the ideas of the geniuses who wrote and read them. Since that time, in spite of our cumulative knowledge, their intellectual excellence as represented in words and usage has never been equaled in any culture. Some say Sanscrit is the most comparable. It should be clear in throughout literature that western civilization has since been in a constant state of devolution. Our language today is clumsy, awkward and at a loss for the terms to express spiritual and philosophical thinking as compared to the Greek of Aristotle's day. The Russian mind and culture maintains something of the ancient breadth and color of the Greeks. It is with humbleness, and awe that I approach these studies recognizing that although I may be somewhat well studied, and may have valid ideas and insights, my thinking is as refined, as my language training, milieu and intelligence capabilities.

The presence of a word in context, then, stands as an expression of ideas once conceived giving meaning, evidence and facts of events. These tiny morsels of information speak clearly. Found in groups, in certain strata of time and place, words have progeny, and ancestry as do people and families do, since they originate from and resemble human life. Words and the pictures they produce shape thoughts and events cultures past and present.

The word, then, is the question, and the answer concerning who we are, and why we do what we do? Where do we come from, and at what certain point were we created. Over what expanse of time did we evolved, if we did evolve. These at best are postulates. At what point did we begin to understand the meaning of love, life, truth and insight? Was our arrival to humanity via a intelligent living medium of a higher order? For, certainly, people have looked to the heavens for wisdom since the beginning of recorded history. Where is our home, and place of origin? Is the earth the original and only source of our existence? Indigenous peoples, who have evolved continually to the present have the purest connection and knowledge of life on earth. Invariably, they acknowledge a supreme being, and deity, and regard an afterlife as a place of eternal well being, happiness and feelings of security and bliss? Those, by contrast, who dwell in the harsh, chaotic urban centers, live in an essentially inorganic, unnatural state. Given that the present highest level of our physical evolution is at the Paleolithic stage, our unnatural mechanized environment is restrictive and toxic to humanity, and the belief systems which follow from this state is similar.

Urban mankind’s curious return to tribal thinking and natural, and holistic living is a necessary change in order that we may survive in balance with nature.

Peacock Pathos - The Artist's Blues

2005-11-03T08:19:00.000-08:00

Jeseppi © 5/3/98

does a peacock say
i must grow my fan a little longer
i must raise my chicks
to be above all the rest

peacock pathos

educated and trained
like trout bred for slaughter
feeding on corn
we frenzy about each kernel

but peacocks live immortal in eden
these are the pickers and gatherers
of gardens
unconformed
unbridled
self manifested individual freedom
in self mastery
channels for the radiant
majestic beings
powerfully connected
to the restful
workings of peace
generating worship
in affection
for the true one
from true being

it is from this place
that the peacocks name
all the animals

let’s see

you are
fatted trout
you please me
you please others
you please everybody
for corn
and not much either
just a little
so every day
we must train you
yes we must remind you to say
the new word
peacock
peacock pathos

i did not say
pee
cock
i said peacock
but you say
pee
cock

seeing how with strapped on prod
sally searches shallow women
sort of like mister gomez
who beats his bell shaped wife
just before cocking her
just before she blows his horse feathers
into permanent deflation
the curse of her permanent defoliation

wholly submitted
to virgins vigils
she does not see
being humbled to understand
one must come down to the earth
while he still stands
squatting not
not he
nor his horse
even the horse does not squat
they will never squat
never even considered
they keep on arrogantly
moving along
and oh dio mio
to anyone who may be following behind
when they release their energies
carelessly
effortlessly
along our guided path

but now the peacock comes
feathers abloom
promethean protractor
for the divine
lifting plume
high above the ground
saying
what a piece of work
this man
lover of horse
careless beasts
driving on together
a compassionless duality
straining at each other’s mortality
peacock pathos

when it comes
these must walk ahead
of those whose gifts are radiant
who search for light
finding moisture
and good feeding
who walk in the natural way
not measuring
not owning
not hording
but spreading ribs wide apart
to reveal a yielded heart †

The Secret of U n I Verse

2005-11-03T08:12:00.000-08:00

What is heat?

Think about it.
We require some of it–
not too much of it–
not too little of it.

Something happens
in a candle–
a wick burns–
a golden orange flame.

Why?
What is happening
around that wick
to make such a pretty color?

The gasses are hot–
they heat up
when they move a lot.

1
Gas?
What is gas?

Gas is a molecule.

Molecule?

What is a molecule?

A molecule is something small.

Small?
What is small?

Small is little.

Little?
What is little?

Little is when it fits
between two fingers.

What are two fingers?

Two fingers
are something on me–
in front of me
that I see.

What is see?

See is when you
absorb into you
something that is on the outside.

Outside?

Yes, outside–
beyond you
as opposed to within.

Within?
What is within?

It is in a place–
there.

There?

Yes. You are there for me,
and, I am there for you.

What do you mean,
For me?

For me is for you.

What is me?

Me is you–
a-cross from me;
me is me.
a-cross from you.

Why did you ask me
about heat?

Because I wanted to know.

To know?

Yes, to know.

It is all emotion–

all feeling.
You are all emotion–
all feeling,
all sensing.
All around you
you sense,
you absorb,
you take in
what is outside you–
out and in,
in and out.
We exchange.
We feel.
We know.
We are.

We are?
Where are we?

We are
in Heaven,
in Hell–
Heaven–good,
Hell–bad.

Good? Bad?
What is good?

Good is a disposition–
a mood.

Mood?
What is a mood?

It is the way you feel.

Feel?

Feel, sense, absorb–
now–good mood–
disposition.
I like it.
I like that.

Like?
What is like?

Like is lifted–
raised up.

What is up?

Up is elevated–
above,
emerging,
majesty,
higher,
highest,
excelling,
growing,
enlarging,
expanding,
encompassing.

Whoa, wait!
All this started from heat?
Heat seems like a kind of being.

Yes, it is.
Heat is being–
much older than we be.
We be a rather new
collection of atoms.

Atoms?

Yes, atoms–
small like molecules–
cannot see one,
cannot feel one,
cannot sense one,
cannot absorb one.

I cannot know one?

Yes, you can–
with your intellect–
you can intellect one,
but, you cannot sense one.
You can
know one.

One is outside me?
It goes into me?
I can think it?

Yes, think!

Think?

Remember!
Go backward–
inward in time–
in memory–
in mind–
in you–
brain.

What is brain?

Brain is systems
of groups,
of groups of molecules–
molecules moving,

or resting,
eye twitching,
molecules moving–
moving–
heat!
Remember I said,
when molecules move
there is heat?

What is heat?
What is moving?
What is not moving?

Things moving–heat–
heat here,
but, not there.

Now, I intellect what is before me.
You are before me.
What are you–
gases–
atoms?
You are moving.
You are not moving.
You are warm.
You are alive.
You are not warm.
You are cold.
You are dead.
What has happened
to your molecules–
to your atoms?
They move, then
they do not move.
They change.
They go away
into other passing molecules.
Soon you are no more.

Where is your mind?
Where is your intellect?
Where are you?
What are you, soul?
You exist.

What is exist?

Exist is to be.

What is be?

Be is being.

What is being?

I said existing already, right?

Right.

Why did I say right?

What is right?

Right is true–
that you be–
that you are being,
seeing,
feeling,
absorbing–
absorbing into ego–
you into my being–
me pushing out
to your being–
exchanging–
attitude,
correct,
right,

true,
above,
majesty,
absorbing,
more absorbing,
less absorbing–
heat moving–
pushing out–
outward from your being.

You!
What are you?
What are you absorbing?
What are you sensing?
What are you feeling–
disposition:
lifted up–
good,
higher–
highest–
majesty,
preexisting–
greater organized,
higher intellect–
being?

Can I sense it?

Yes.

Can I absorb it?

Yes, but not all of it–
just a little.
You can know it.
You can sense it.
It is greater than you are–
than your being.

Is it good?

Yes, it is good,
correct, and right–
majesty.
It is higher.
It is greater.

Yes, I see it.

It is greater.

I know it.
I sense it.
I absorb?

Yes, but, not completely.
More remains outside.
It absorbs you.
You suck on its nipple.
It wraps around you–
embracing you,
holding you in!
It is more than me.
It is all around me.
I am in it.
Its nipple only is in me.
I feel good.
I feel lifted.
I feel full.
We are full of it.
It is not full of us.
It will never be full of us.
I joke. You laugh. We are lifted.
This is humorous to think of.
You laugh.
You are lifted up.

You feel good.
Good is higher.
Feel is absorb.
Feel is sense–
not too small to sense–
to take it here in me–
in you.

Take?
What is to take?

To extend out and touch,
and pull what you see
into you–
in there–not here–in you.
Take–
being taking,
many beings taking.
Taken–
taken to another being–
taken away.

What is away?

Away is moved–
moved away,
separated.

Separated is good?
Is right and correct?
Higher?

No,
not higher.
Separated moves away.
I no longer sense.
I no longer absorb.
Absorbing is good–

was good.

Was?
What is was?

Was past.
Past is not now.

Past is not being.
Being exists.
Exist is good.
Exist is higher.
Exist is lifted.
Exist is above.
Exist is true.
Exist is alive.

Alive?
What is alive?

Alive moves–
is moving–
more heat,
not dead–
less heat.

What is less heat?

Less movement–less heat
is absorbed into more movement–
more heat.
Movement is living.
Movement is intellect.
Movement is good.
Movement is higher.
Movement is above.
Movement absorbs.

Movement is heat.
Heat is brilliant.
Heat is glowing.
Heat is energy.

Energy?
What is energy?

Energy is strength–
power.

What is power?

Power moves.
Power pushes out.
Power extends,
But, power does not take in–
it draws in.

How?

By being greater–
good, right–
it absorbs,
and, it pushes out.
It gives birth.

Birth?
What is birth?

Birth is coming out.
Birth pushes forth.
Pushes out.
Then it holds.
Birth is great.
Greater.

What is greater?

Mother is greater.
Mother pushes out.

Mother takes in?

No, mother does not take in.
Mother holds in.
Mother absorbs, senses–
good, higher, lifted–
baby–
baby lifted–
baby feels.

What is baby?

Baby is small.
Baby takes.
Baby absorbs.
Baby does not know.
Baby does not intellect.
Baby senses.
Baby is new.

What is new?

New is closer to now.

When now?

Now!

What is now?

Now is here–
being here.
Now is good.
Now is higher.
Now is true.

True?
What is true?

True is good.
True is higher.
True is right.
True exists.
True is being.
Being is me.
Being is you.
Being is true.
Being is we.
Being exists.
Being is alive.
Being is moving.
Being is good.
Being is warm.
Being is intellect.
Being is mind.
Being is know.

Why is being know?

Being is know
because being is good.
Being is true.
Being is alive.
Being does not take.
Being draws in.
Being moves–
draws in what moves less.

But, i don’t see it.
I don’t sense it.
I don’t feel it.

Being, are you kidding?
You know it

when being is away–
being separated–
not good.
Being draws
because being is warm.
Being is good.
Being is greater.
Being is higher.
Being is above.
Being is majesty.
Being is power.
Being pushes out.
Being is does not take.
Being is not baby.
Being is not new.
Being is now.
Being is not past.
Being is present.
Being is with us.
You and me.
We are being.
You there and me here.
I give; you give.
I give; you receive.

Receive?
What is receive?

Receive is to open to feel.
Receive is to open to sense.
Receive is to open to absorb,
when being
is open to absorb.

What is open?

Open is released,
unlatched,

enlarging,
inviting,
being open to absorb.
Absorbing is good.
Absorbing is higher.
When absorbing is good,
absorbing is nourishment.
Nourishment is movement.
Movement is heat.
Heat is sustaining.
Heat is alive.
Heat is not dead.
Heat is being.
Dead is cold.

Cold?
What is cold?

Cold is less heat.
I feel cold.
I sense cold.
I do not take cold in.
I catch cold.
Cold passes by–
and, when cold hits me,
it does not bounce off me–
I catch it.

You take it?

No, I take a bath–
I catch cold–
like a football.

What about your bath?

I baptize.
I make go into water.

I immerse.
I take the water.
It absorbs me.
It is all around me.
It is good
when it is warm.
It is not good
when it is too cold.
When it is cold
it takes from me.
I have less heat–
I die.
I take warm baths.
When it is hot,
it’s movement is greater
than I am mine.
I am cooler.
I change.
It is energy.
It is power–
pushing out.
I cannot endure.
It draws me in–
it does not take me in.
I go in.
It receives me.
I am drawn in by heat–
pushed out by power.
It moves.
It is alive.
It is greater.
It is true.
It is intellect.
It knows.
It is power.
It is God.

God?

What is God?

All power.
All knowing.
All present.

What is present?

Present is near everything.

What is near everything?

God–

God is in everything?

No, beside everything.
Energy is changing-
exchanging.
God does not change–
is Elemental,
is Essential.

Is God heat?

Yes.

Warmth?

Yes.

Too hot?

No, God is perfect.

Cold?

Can never be.

God is opposite cold–
separates from cold–
does not join to cold–
does not absorb cold–
does not take in cold–
is all power–
pushing out–
penetrating–
into the non-god realm–
sperm,
birth,
mother–
moving.
The non-god realm
does not push
into the God realm–
is cold
is dead.

God is alive.
God is good.
God is love.

Love?
What is love.

Love is being.
Love is true.
Love is true being.
Love does not take.
Love is higher.
Love is above.
Love is sense.

Love is being?

Love is being–
alive–

good.
Love is good.
Love can do.

Do?
What is do?

Know is do.
Do joins.

What is join?

Join connects.
Join does not separate.
Join is good.

Join is know?

No, join is not know–
know joins,
intellect joins,
combines–
like molecules–
like atoms.
They move.
Move is good.
Move is alive.
Join gets warmer.
Separate gets colder.
Join shapes by combining.
Intellect creates by joining.

Creates?
What is create?

Create is move.
Create is heat.
Create is warm.

Destroy is separate–
is cold,
is dead.

Destroy?
What is destroy?

Destroy disconnects
Destroy disjoins.
Destroy pulls apart.
Destroy moves toward cold.
Destroy is not good.
Destroy is not true.
Destroy is not higher.
Destroy is below.
Destroy is beneath create.
Destroy is hate.
I love.
You destroy.
I destroy.
You love.
One is below.
One is above.
One is dead.
One is alive.
One does not know.
One knows.
One senses.
One does not sense.
One receives.
One does not receive.
One is being.
One is not being.

That’s not what Einstein says.
Einstein says it’s all relative!

What does Einstein know?

Einstein is cold.
Einstein is not now.
Einstein does not exist.
Einstein is destroyed.
Where is he?
Where did he go?

Go?
You used that word before.

Go is to move–
move to,
or move away.

Which way did he go?

He went
that’a way.

Which’a way?

The way he went
when he was warm.

Which way was that–
toward the warmer,
or, toward the cooler?

I don’t know.
If he went toward the warmer,
he is probably somewhere
near the warmer.
If he went toward the cooler,
he is getting colder.
He made his choice?

Choice?
What is choice?

Choice is to intellect toward.
Choice is being toward.
Toward?

Yes, toward is facing.

Where was Einstein facing?

I don’t know?

Who knows?

God knows.
God is warm.
God draws.
If he was facing God,
then God was drawing him.
And, if not, then God
was not drawing him.
And you,
which way are you facing?
What is drawing you:
the heat,
the cold,
the higher,
the lower,
the above,
the below,
the alive
the dead?
Do you know?
Where will you go?

And, the flame–
it moves,
it is hot,
its molecules move–
move more greatly

than the molecules in me.
It is greater than I.
It absorbs me.
I am cooler.
I see light.
I sense.
I know.
I create.
I intellect.
I choose.
I face.
I go.
I love heat.
I lean toward.
I love to be warm.
Heat is now.
Heat is new.
Heat joins.
Heat is true.
Heat combines–
intellect leaning toward heat–
leans toward being.

What is being?

The One being
which is higher.
The One above.
The One we search for.
The Greatest living being–
The Creator–
The Heater.

Living?
What is living?

Living is Spirit–
The Warm One,

The One who loves,
The One who draws,
The One who knows.
The One who comes,
The One who saves.

Saves?
What is save?

Save like power
pushing out,
but, not pushing away.
Save lifts out.
Save lifts up–
like laughter.
Save lifts above.

Save bring down?

No, save comes down–

Come?
What is come?

Come goes out.
Save goes up.
Save is good.
Save is being.
Being is save.
Heat is being saved.
†

Performed at The Berkeley Arts Center, Berkeley, California, April 7th 1998.

Special thanks to–

Tobias Alexander White for assisting with the performance;
Barbara Michelman and Rita Bregman for their continuous support and friendship.

26

Now You Know My Friend

2005-10-26T11:22:00.000-07:00

the leaders and rulers in jerusalem
said he was a warlock
a blasphemer
a sorcerer
a satan worshiper

they claimed his miracles were hoaxes
accused him of sedition
as many jews began referring to him
as their king
their messiah

during his public life
he associated freely with people
of every class and gender
but directed his message
specifically to isreal

after three and one half years
walking about the country
he entered jerusalem and said
if you destroy this temple
in three days
i will raise it up again

the high jewish counsel immediately
arrested him
and at a late night meeting of elders
they accused and condemned him
there was no formal arraignment or trial

they then brought him before
the roman governor
pontius pilate
who found no fault in him
and sent him to the king of isreal
herod
who mocked him
sent him back

after having him severely scourged
pilate was astounded
when this man kept silent
before the hostile jewish leaders
who vehemently accused him
and demanded he be killed

he brought him outside
to a large throng of people
and gave them the opportunity
to free this man
or a known terrorist
awaiting execution

they screamed
to release the known murderer
and for the silent scourged man
“CRUCIFY HIM!!”

likewise
many who love to blame
judge and condemn
curse his name today

they took him to a hill called the skull
there they spiked his hands to a cross beam
and rested it upon a wooden column
to which they spiked his feet

as he hung there dying
he prayed
father forgive them
for they know not what they do

now
you know
my friend

now you know

Artist's Manifesto

2005-10-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

[The following letter is a manifesto for working artists which explains why our lifestyle, our identity and our contributions keep the San Francisco Bay Area a flourishing multi-cultural global leader.

The letter develops from a brief apolgetic in defense of a working artist who used my boat as a respite and place of solice.]

September 1, 1999

Steve Burton
Marina Manager
Emeryville Marina
3310 Powell Street
Emeryville, CA 94608

Dear Steve,

The frequent use of my property at E-6 apparently has caused you some concern, and I will address that in this letter.

Scott Andrews*, a professional associate, uses "Mama Mia" as often as he wishes within the guidelines set by Westrec. To my understanding his evenings here are infrequent. He both works full time and has his residence in San Francisco.

If there has been any disturbance caused by Scott please bring such matters to my attention with specific data so that I, or we, can begin to process the necessary adjustments as quickly as possible. I wish to maintain my tenancy quietly and in good standing here, and intend to remain in compliance with the terms of our agreement. I am willing to avoid confrontation over this matter if possible.

Would you take a moment for a little feedback, Steve?

A closer look at our situation may offer a much better understanding of what is happening among certain members of the marina. Both Scott and myself are part of a highly productive community of working professional performing artists in the San Francisco Bay Area. Avoiding the frenetic nature of this wonderful city, we are better able to focus on our work, as writers, performers and recording artists. It is of vital necessity to the mastery of our product that we spend as much time as possible in a serene environment such as this. Bear in mind that although some artists process paperwork all day long, or set thousands of tiles in grid form next to each other, as I do, when we finish the day's work, we begin the evening work. We create and refine new ideas, concepts for publication. We are victims of stress, and physical exhaustion. We deeply need and appreciate the psychological, emotional and spiritual respite of the marina more critically than anyone else I know. The quality of our work strictly depends upon the quiet and separation that the marina offers. It is here that inspiration often emerges, and we are better able to compose, and develop our instruments and various skills needed to perform flawlessly and creatively as artists of our caliber in what is considered one of the most competitive and demanding cultural areas in the world. Sleepless nights are not uncommon. Yet, we must appear fresh for our day jobs. San Francisco artists prototype new trends in many disciplines. Many of us contribute creatively as we are constantly exploring new approaches in our specific fields of interest. Those who boast of the culture and panache of this colorful city should also be mindful of our lives, as well as the end product of what we do. Since we make a significant cultural statement in this community, while somewhat anonymous in daily life, this letter should serve to clarify our position as working artist professionals, not only in the corporate community, but in the trades community as well.

In the past a certain highly productive teacher, physical therapist, and professional performing artist who was berthed here unfortunately underwent what might be considered "harassment". Rather than become embroiled in a long period of confrontation with the present administration, she chose, as is consistent with the milder disposition of many professional artists, not to engage, but sadly left this marina. Many have suffered a significant sadness and loss because of it. I find this disturbing because many knew that she was not in any violation of her contract. But, for the reasons I mentioned earlier, she succored from the frequent use of her personal property, and was assumed to be an illegal live aboard. I hope that this letter will serve to clarify that there are others who use this marina for different purposes, who are not avid weekend boaters, or indifferent holiday visitors, but rather, take a daily active interest in being in an environment which offers us a scaled down, simpler lifestyle something that this society is rapidly moving toward. Today we serve as a necessary positive example and encouragement to many others. Kindly bear in mind that many of us are also religiously ecologically minded, possessing a deep love, knowledge and respect for nature drawing from her beauty in the fashioning of our work which we then return to the greater community. In this way we serve society on many levels. It would seem a shame to hinder or reject such devoted and conscientious persons who are enriched and strengthened by the marina in support of most who are virtually never here. Some represent a healthy glowing presence, cooperative spirit and life force for the less frequent users.

Then there is the constant battle of prejudice mounting against the working artist who, by virtue of his, or her often strikingly creative persona, style, or state of mind may momentarily appear to be of some lesser value, or understandably, pose a certain threat to the status, goals and objectives determined by those whom we serve sincerely and wholeheartedly through our work as we strive to be a humanizing element in the exposition of our talents and creative wisdom. Although we may not appear to be operating within the norms of dress and financial security, (historically consistent with many in our field) please do not mistake our individuality of expression, or temperament associated with the emotional sensitivities of the deeply observant, brilliant artist, with any form of weakness or degeneration. Many are struggling to improve and grow, honestly and quietly in this fast moving competitive environment we serve by acting as wisely and as prudently as possible. Many do not have the financial resources to respond decisively and immediately to certain changes, and often suffer frustration and setback while struggling to build a more stable state of being. We tend to sympathize with other artists who have suffered thus, so we share from our meager estates freely and without the unnecessary protocol, and ubiquitous need for compensation. My associate and personal manager, Augusta Lee Collins, for example, who is Afro American, has performed for years with noted artists such as Herbie Hancock and Freddie Hubbard. He and my bassist performed for the inauguration of Jerry Brown. He lives humbly and quietly in a small hotel room in downtown Oakland. (I am hesitant to extend to him frequent use of "Mama Mia" because not all Afro Americans choose to emulate the social demeanor of Anglo America, and so, may be subject to unnecessary scrutiny, or harassment. This is an issue I publicly address in my writing and music). Half of the musical equipment I presently use was loaned to me by Bonnie (Chancellor) Veblen, a dear friend and confidant, who maintains two bronzes in the Smithsonian Institute. Cathy Luchetti, who is a noted historian, has published numerous works on women's historical issues, and was honored last year with first place for the International Book Award with "The Hot Flash Cook Book," and has appeared on the Lee Leno Show. Yet, she, along with Bonnie, would not boast of any affluence except in the quality and tenor of their works. Lee Williams, my dearest senior friend, who is a disabled paraplegic, was honored with the Humanitarian Award in Hollywood last year. He travels widely in support of the critical issues of the disabled. These are just a few of the gifted, who, at first glance, might be easily mistaken for what is categorically average. And, Ann Farber, my literary agent, whose office is located in the Madison Avenue District of New York City, I am certain has numerous stories to tell about those whom she represents, Kirt Vonnegut for one. These have added immeasurably to the society in which they live, as do certain of the tenants and personal friends who occasionally enjoy the use of my boat, one, whose father serves as a federal court judge.

With fear of stereotyping our character it should be noted that society traditionally has required us to be wholly, uniquely and publicly creative, before our work will be publicly honored. Those whose interests and work are for the most part non-cultural, often endorse and enjoy our work in the present, and inevitably come to benefit in the legacy and archives we leave behind. It would be a shame to act hastily, or unwittingly toward the professional artist who is, indeed, and in many ways "struggling."

At a board meeting I attended before Westrec took over, a white haired local board member stated publicly that the use of the marina was not intended for what he referred to as, "a bunch of narcissistic artists who like to live by the water," forgetting that it was an artist who designed his house, furniture, the elegant lines on his car, and the profiles on the coins in his pocket. Such a thoughtless statement, it is safe to say, represents a prejudicial mentality not shared with all. Do you see a kind of paradox here, my friend? Society validates us if we are committed to the cause, struggling, stoical, sometimes removed from the system, and curiously eccentric, before validating our work, and then, looks down on us because we represent a humbler lot in life. God forbid we own a boat, or a cabin near those who are never there. How threatening. Yet, responsible artists maintain the distinct often polished capability (often with community support) to speak multi- dimensionally, expressing what we see with formidable and unsettling accuracy on any subject, any person, any institution, or any system, enlightening, informing and driving home to the greater community the less obvious details concerning this environment, justice, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness for all. In this manner we often find ourselves up front on vital national issues consumed with the pressing needs of our nation, and of the greater global community. At least, those are the artists with whom I generally associate. We are a necessary reality here. I, myself, served voluntarily in combat in Viet Nam, while many of the children of the yacht owners in the Bay Area at that time were safely tucked away in colleges, or in Canada. My entire soul witnessed the suffering, maiming and death of many people. I still live with vivid memories, and a crushed heart and will never recover from the hideousness of what we humans are capable of inflicting on one another, with commerce quietly hidden beneath the juicy contracts, and the good people who might have lost their jobs if we didn't continue killing and being killed. Today, I write and perform for the cause of love and peace. No nation has ever survived without it. I was invited to work at Folsom Prison and maintained the longest stay of any assistant chaplain, for a period of twenty eight consecutive months in the protective custody area among child molesters, serial killers, family leaders, rapists and on. I traveled three hours weekly in each direction with no monetary compensation. I initiated and labored feeding the homeless in Oakland during that entire time in Old Man's Park, with a few members of my family and friends, at our own expense each Sunday morning. That work has effectively changed lives. Other artists here have similar backgrounds. Having come via this path, it is incumbent upon me, and society requires me, at a certain point, to speak thoughtfully, poignantly, and relentlessly, through the full force of my work, especially whenever certain vital human principles are endangered, challenged, or violated. I do not shrink from my mission, but explore, and expand important issues en ensemble with those who have earned a certain right to speak. In recent years I co-produced, with Lee Williams and Barbara Michelman, who was a script writer for "The Little House on the Prairie," two full length theatrical performances at the Berkeley Arts Center on woman's issues. Our statement touched many noted poets and writers who attended.

I am certain that Westrec in its intent to fulfill its commitment to the People of Emeryville will continue to manage this marina with fairness, equity and understanding of the specific needs of the highly cultural community in which it operates, as well as the artists who spend a good deal of time here developing their product. And, like the most noteworthy corporations, I am certain you will find new ways to honor those who are contributing so wonderfully in our society. You certainly have our support as well.

I'd like to thank you for this opportunity to better formulate my thoughts and address the professional working artist here. Some of the ideas in this letter will serve as a kind of manifesto for an organization I've been kicking around called, "The Coalition for Cultural Concerns." When it comes about I’ll be sure to put you on the mailing list for the news letter. Its time to address the issues of the artist here in America, I think, in a more concrete and public manner.

I hope that I have succeeded in offering some clarity. I am happy to speak with you again personally before September 7th as you have requested at your convenience. I may be reached at any time at 510/220-xxxx.

Sincerely,

Joseph L. Segreto
Jeseppi Trade Wildfeather

founder
Coalition for Cultural Concerns

This document has been posted since 1999 at www.godys.com/coalition/

*Actual name changed for privacy concerns.

Pluck A String

2005-10-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

Jeseppi
6/14/75
Binghamton, New York

pluck a string
hear websters seventh collegiate vibrations
take the point out of the contrapuntal
and as you do the mombo with your mantra
don’t bend into bold inclinations
you might loose your place
and as you rest
with bars all around you
you’ll sit humming the tune you learned
at your neighborhood head health center
where a hundred thousand volts of cosmic nectar
pass through your brain
without you noticin
or batting an eye
can even see yourself die
when you're more advanced
deeply entranced
merely enhanced

is milk and honey worth the money
does he smile cause it’s funny
being prisoner of the flesh
on his way to marakesh
to buy a meershum pipe
to smoke your aromatic minds with
when they’re ripe and dried
artificially flavored and humidified
even cancer of the lip
is no match
for the cosmic trip he’s trained to place you on
when you catch it
the parapsychologic affliction
of the overtamed
paper trained
fine brained enlightened

and so a time when your vice is overpriced
when old ladies expecting antichrist
at thirteen to appear
then go and hide
and come back again
and win from them
their next of kin
harsh competition
and so bummed outta the race
of not being believed
yet begreived by the mess
they stand in witness
to the real lord
who speaks profoundly to the simple
who cannot express the truth they live
like you can
on your four hundred and fifty dollar
red metal flaked dulcimer
that you will play for him near his bed
with six six six embossed on you head
and the real god who was dead
will resurrect for the last time
but it’ll be just mime this time
not jazz that you hear or you don’t
you’ll see it or you won’t
like where the oil is really coming from
and you will try to buy your salvation
with a petrodollar
but there will be no sale
'cause the one who does the selling
may be the jew again
and the ones who do the buying
may be non catholics
and get thrown to the communists
as the jews get their visas
and fellinni discovers the real implications
about his roma
gateway to the new world
where visions of johanna
are only sung of
not seen of
by all those looking to escape their confusion
through a transfusion
into a new vain of inspiration
which turns out to be coal
and gets sold again
for another petrodollar
over the counter
or out in the sun
where the yogis sit
sipping linen strips
and hyperventilating off words
meant to cut them back into the groove
as the big disk spins
and everything just happens to be
or not to be
depending upon the question
and which generation
does the asking

The Lord's Land

2005-09-24T11:19:00.000-07:00

This is a photo of a little gem called Tiny Cabin .

Situated on Navarro Ridge the Lord's Land lies in its own tiny microclimate surrounded by a perpetual Shekina Glory. Three and one half miles inland from one of the most beautiful coasts in California it is a place of continuous inspiration, peace and joy.

What Is Not

2005-08-14T20:26:00.000-07:00

A dissenting vote
is a blessing,

but a dissenting person
is a curse.

A wise person
will cast a dissenting vote
in favor of what is.
But, a fool
will follow the herd
to the slaughter.

What is not?
Not is the evidence
of a soul in deep bondage.
Not is the law of ineptitude.
Not is the absence
of will.
Not is a dark chasm
of inactivity.

Not is the subtle process
of the destruction
of the person.

Each time a person says,
“I am not ...”
a conflict arises.
For, certainly,
one is.

For many years
I lived in
“I am not ...”
I was confused.
Today, I am clear.

I am

can

do

will.

When I was
“I am not ...”
“I can not ...”
“I do not ...”
“I will not ...,”
my soul was quite sad.

I wasn’t,
couldn’t,
didn’t
wouldn’t.

But, now,
I am ... can, do , will.
These are powerful terms.
Apply them to your life,
and, prosperity comes.

The person who lives
in not
is dull and impoverished;
languishing in lack of being.

I’ll tell you,
on the other hand,
what is not.

Not is knot.

You tie a knot.
A knot binds something.
If you say
you are knot;
you are bound,
tied up body, mind and spirit.

If you say
she is knot;
you bind her as well.

If you say,
“I will knot”,
then what I wish
is knot.

My friend calls,
“Hey, Wildfeather,
want to come with me,
and sail on the bay?”

“I’m a little tied up,”
I say, “knot today.”

“I’m knot going.”

Imagine that?
A two hundred pound knot
going nowhere,
the epitome of bondage,
doing what ?

Who knows?

Can knot.
Do knot.
Will knot.

The knots get convoluted;
one for every task,
idea, or purpose;
twisted, curled, twirled
in every direction,
but, up.

Knots keep going
around and around.
Pull on them;
they get tighter.

Those who are
the most severely tied up
are the religious folk
who are trained to
love them nots.

They have special nots
for each minute of the day;
make their home in nots.

They have created
an abstract realm
they call “not”,
and, believe it is spiritual,
when all the while
what is spiritual
is what truly is.
Them religious folk
believe what is spiritual
is what is not,
without knowing
what not is,
even though they
believe it.

Living in not
is a place of unawareness.
Unawareness is fear,
guilt and shame.
Many lies find a home
in the kingdom of not
which is nowhere.

In the land of not
you have not,
should not,
might not;
ought not.
All these coupled with:
you will not.
You believe
the other guy
is gonna run the show.

This is why
religious folk believe
they must be under
the authority
of a leader
who is not.

A leader who is not
is exactly
what them religious folk want.
When they search
for a leader
they judge the knots
to see how many,
and how tight they are.

The more knots,
and the tighter they are,
the more religious
their leader will be,
since the word religious
comes from the word
which means to tie up.

Not knowing,
he will teach them.

Not seeing,
he will lead them.

Not feeling,
he will touch them.

Not listening,
he will hear them.

Not joking,
he will humor them.

He will,
but, they will not.
He will refer to
their assembly as church;
the assembly of knots,
where each not
will be tied
in the name of the Lord.

Here is the birth of nots,
and the death of freedom.
Here is where you save the nots.
This is “not” conservation.
This is an utter waste
of humanity.

It amazes me, how,
often I untie a few nots;
how quickly those deeply religious
retie them.
First , they seem joyous and happy,
but, next day
all the nots are back,
even a few new ones.

The nots
are always in the middle
of two opposite ends;
something tied in the middle.

When the not
is in your head
your face is in the middle
where the not shows up.
It wrinkles around the nose;
puts deep creases and furrows
in the brow;
causes the chin to quiver;
the eyes become constricted,
glassy, and distant;
tightness is the overall effect
with age.

The mirror reveals the not,
and the effects upon the face.
Therefore, every form of cosmetic
is employed to cover the not.
The religious cover up the face;
the head; the body; the heart;
the soul.

Although the face
reveals the tightness
of the not,
every other aspect of the person
suffers as well,
and eventually reveals itself
in many forms of
physical restrictions;
ill health, and deformities.

Therefore, the religious
who are engaged in many nots
become so constricted
in all that is not,
that they become twisted
in their bodies, and minds,
and feeling so ashamed, and embarrassed,
they cover themselves up
and require all to do the same
to remind them always
of what is not.

The mask of not
is the mask of naught;
naught and naughtiness.
All is naught
among the relig ious.
All they do
they do for naught.
Therefore, they cover up
their naughtiness,
so that everyone
may know
because they are
proud of the not.
They boast of not.
They wear the not
as a cloak;
a cloak with a long train.
At times
they drag it through
long p rocessions
requiring others to
gaze upon the long cloak
of not and naught,
idolizing its meaning,
and, thus, the people of naught
give it power, and authority
over them to rule them;
to rule them in all
that is not.
Therefore, likewise,
they cover themselves,
concealing what is naught.
They smile covering the not.
They say nice words,
covering the not.
They make promises,
and commit to cover the not.
Being in the not,
is their mentality.
And, living in that mentality
they seek to appear
pleasant to others
on the outside
while covering the naught
on the inside.
They act the not
instead of becoming real.
They act in and under the cover,
rather than showing up
what is within,
that all may see,
and know the truth.

The not has become
the world of abstraction
posing to be reality;
the ultimate lie,
the treacherous betrayer
of truth
posing to be the truth
when it is naught.

Speak the truth.
Speak what is.
Speak what you are.
Speak what you can.
Speak what you do.
Speak whatever you will.
and, be your truth
freely
first.

Learn to distinguish
between what is,
and what is not.

- Jeseppi Trade Wildfeather
7/3/05